cus you had a bad day.

I finally decided to blog again, because of all these bad days i've been having. I know everyone has their bad days, but why do mine keep coming one after the other? Sometimes i feel like im not worth anyone's time, like if i dissappeared, no one would really care. I know there's always gonna be someone out there thats more important, BETTER, than me. I'm fully aware of that, but why rub it in my face ALL the time? I know you dont mean to, but honestly, you do, so much. & im not just talking to one person, there's so many people that do that to me, people who i'm supposedly "close" to. I hate dissappointing people, and i hate when people dissappoint me. i just need someone that i KNOW 100% will never let me down. That's impossible to find though, cus no one's perfect. But right now, Mervin's the closest thing to it. I LOVE YOU KUYA. I hate when people blow me off, or say things they dont mean. its like ripping a part of my soul out. Like if you're gonna tell me something, make sure you can live up to it. IDK. i just hate a lot of things right now. But i love talking to mervin, cus i vent my heart out to him. BLAAAAH. I wish everything was just settled already. & i wish i didnt have to worry so much. & honestly, i look for the little things that you do for proof.

It's one thing to say something, it's another to prove it.