hmm.

I think today was good. Until the end anyways. There was a good 5 seconds today where i was COMPLETELY happy, where during that time, NOTHING would've made me anything but happy. I had butterflies in my stomach and everything was going just perfectly. I think after that, anything that was going to happen would never top those 5 seconds. Maybe cus i was expecting more, but i got nothing. Oh well, maybe it'll happen again, one day...

Umm, i really dont know what to talk about today.

hello DECEMBER!

So it's officially December. & for the first time in my life, i'm not excited. I'm leaving in 9 days... no bueno, no bueno at all. I wish i was old enough to stay home alone for a month, or that my parents would trust me to anyways. I hate that they still treat me like a 5 year old. Freaking overprotective parents.

Anyways, overall, today was a good day. Today everything was settled, and i got a little more cozy. I've never felt like this before, but i guess its a good thing. I wish i was a bit more sure about a lot of situations though. But for now, i'm all good. Besides the stress of Holiday Follies and school work, i think i'm actually stable for once. Thanks for being my crutch. Thanks for helping me be able to walk on my own again. I feel as though you're the thing i've been missing in my whole 16 years of life. I know everything isn't perfect, but for now, its just right.

Then again, i wish you weren't so unsure of me. But I guess its something that'll grow overtime... i hope.