excitement

I want this year to end already ! I'm almost there, a couple more weeks. I'm excited next year, mostly for choir though. Finally, after 3 years, i get to go back to competing. Hopefully the people next year make choir more fun. I hate how i start getting close to people at the end of the year. Especially if they're seniors and are leaving. Horrible feeling to know that in a couple of weeks, they'll be gone. *sigh. You win some, you lose some right?
Banquet is tomorrow. Don't know what to wear yet. Hopefully my camera works, i wanna start posting pictures again.

FRIDAY ! Double date with my man and jackie and her man :D. I need an outift for that too. & then Sunday, seeing them AGAIN ! excittteeedddd ! i love... uhhh yeahh. hahah <3

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Gizelle

popshow/ 4 years

OHMYYY. So many tears yesterday. Makes you realize who really means a lot to you and who doesnt. WOW.

This was supposed to be posted yesterday, but i couldnt get to a computer.:
So my grandma died 4 years ago yesterday. It hit my family really hard, and honestly it split us apart. She was the glue that held everyone together, and without her, everything was messed up. 4 years doesnt seem that long ago. It feels like just last week she was singing to me. & no one knows this, but she was the reason i love to sing. Everyday she would hum things or teach me words to a song, and we'd sing together. & it was pretty ironic how yesterday was popshow where i was singing. & i thank her for inspiring me. 4 years, wow. i still get teary eyed everytime i think about it, and i really havent gotten over it completely. I didnt cry during that month because i was in shock. I could never have thought that the person i was the closest to would leave me. But things happen and situations change, but all of it makes you stronger. In the last 4 years, i've become more independent and i've learned to show my emotions. I've broken out of my shell and i've become more open. All the lessons my grandma has taught me has really helped me a lot. When i was young, i took a lot of things for granted, because i always thought i was going to have everything that i wanted. But after she died, i realized that even the most important things to you will eventually go away. I hope i made her proud yesterday. I wish she was in the crowd cheering me on, but i know she was somewhere that had a better view.

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Gizelle

day 4

EFF THIS BULLCRAP. I HATE YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU. I HATE CHOIR. OR AT LEAST A LOT OF THE PEOPLE IN IT. IT DOESNT EVEN SEEM WORTH IT ANYMORE. ENCHANTMENT SUCKS, AND ALL THE MOTIVATION ANYONE TRIES TO GIVE THEM GOES INTO ONE EAR AND OUT THE OTHER. LIKE SERIOUSLY, YOU PAID MONEY TO DO THIS CRAP, WHY NOT MAKE IT WORTH IT? I JUST WANNA DO ME AND HANNAH'S THING AND GO HOME, THIS IS PATHETIC. CAN THIS WEEK JUST BE OVER ALREADY. ALL THIS PRACTICE AND ALL THESE HOURS OF WORK ARE DEFINATELY SO NOT WORTH IT. I'M DONE. KEEP YOUR ATTITUDE TO YOURSELF, NO ONE ELSE WANTS OR NEEDS IT. IF YOU GET IN TROUBLE, JUST TAKE IT. YOU DON'T NEED TO RUIN EVERYBODY ELSE'S DAY. LEARN A LESSON AND TRY TO BE POSITIVE SOMETIMES. I REALLY DON'T NEED ALL THIS RIGHT NOW.

-Gizelle

day 3

This lack of sleep is really hurting my body and mood. My skin's been really bad lately, and everybody knows about my crankiness. Sleep is essential, I only start realizing that now. This week has gone by really fast. Maybe cus my whole life is only centered around choir this week. My mind set is choir and popshow. I'm just so nervous about messing up and embarrassing myself. & really, everyone needs to step up their game. Forget about all this stupid drama and stop being selfish. If you're gonna do bad cus you're in a bad mood, you affect the whole choir. & if you're not gonna be a team player, why are you in choir anyways? UGHH, people piss me off.
I really wish the show goes good. It'll prove to me that all this time i've worked is worth it. BLAHBLAHBLAH. My parents are going on Friday. I'm nervous cus they expect so much from me. Whatever, i'm doing the best i can, it's either they like it or not.

May 29 and 31 ! <3

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Gizelle

day 2

OVER. One of the moodiest days i've had for a while now. Everything was alright until the end of fifth/beginning of lunch. UGH. Maybe its cus i havent gotten enough sleep lately. Whatever, i'm usually more tolerant, but lately i've been really cranky/moody. Sorry to put my crankiness on you, but if you set me off, you're done. So sorry if i snap at you over the next couple of days. Well actually i'm not sorry, cus if you bug me, it's your fault. I'm just having one of those "i hate the world" kinda days. But in a couple of days, i'll get over it, and i'll probably feel bad...maybe. Then next week, get to see my babybooooooo! 29th and 31st please :]. rawr.

I actually fell asleep kinda early last night, but my dog had to throw up on my bed in the middle of the night and i had to get up and clean everything. & when i wake up, it takes me forever to fall back asleep. I was originally supposed to get 7 hours of sleep, but instead i got 4. EFF THIIIIIS. Don't mind me, i'm moody. It will probably be better to stay away from me for the next few days.

okay, i'm done.

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Gizelle

day 1

Day one of practice is over. I'm tired. I really dont like setting up the curtains, makes you all sweaty and dirtyyyy. Practice was alright, ran through the whole show, kinda confusing, but its fun. Come to popshow and help realize that i didnt give up so much work for nothing. And if you've never heard me sing before, here's your chance :]. I told myself i was gonna take pictures, but i kept forgetting. Oh wells, hopefully tomorrow.

I'm really tired, so i'm gonna go to bed. Don't text or call, i need sleep tonight. Adios !

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Gizelle

smooth sailing

Biology presentation is OVER, no more stress. 21 more days of school left. Its gonna be smooth from here, except for finals week. My whole life next week is gonna be choir. Pop show practice monday-thursday, show friday and saturday. You should go :]. I need to go shopping soon.
Yeah so i have a cold right now, NOT SWINE FLU. Seriously, people need to CHIILLL. I like being sick cus my family is nice to me and they do whatever i ask. & if my brother is mean to me, all i have to do is threaten to cough on his stuff :]. THATS WHAT HE GETS!
Yeah so i'm bored now, and i'm gonna look online for things to wear for me and Hannah's thing.

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Gizelle

LALALA

My throat is in PAIN. Like it hurts when i swallow and stuff, boohoo. & i sound like a man. Oh daaarn.
Days are too repetative. But schools almost over, so its all good. Next week will be kinda busy i guess. Practice and then popshow. Then banquet. Then graduation. This year went by in a blur. I can't believe its almost over, but then again, i'm happy that it is. So many mistakes were made this year, and i've learned from them, time to move on.
I have a Biology project i should be working on right now, so i'm gonna end it here. GOOOODBYE !

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Gizelle

teenage years

I've never really noticed this before, but there are a good amount of decent looking guys at school. HAHA. Well kinda, maybe i should walk a different way to class now. :]. I'm lame, i know, but HEY, i'm a teenager.
Yeah soooo, i dont like mean people. If you're gonna be mean to someone, at least be mean to someone who actually did something to you. If you have no reason, then keep yo mouth SHUT. kaythanks. UGH, people are so sick of taking your crap, thats why she did that. I mean like seriously, you have no right to be such a jerk. whatever, EFF YOU.
Anyways, I was reading old conversations yesterday. OH MANN. I realized so much could of happened just by one little change. EVERYTHING was SOOO perfect just because we were friends. But after everything that's happened, its kinda weird now. I know we're not gonna be like this forever, so i'm waiting for the day when everything changes again.

MAY:
18-21 practice
22&23 POP SHOW
27 banquet
31 Blackout 101 concert <3

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Gizelle

songwriting?

I was just reminded that i havent written a song in FOREVER. Maybe cus days have been less and less inspirational lately, and i have nothing to say or let out. But one day i'll write one again ;].
So today was ehhh. Pretty lame, i just wanted Monday to be over with already. I had a really good dream though, they always make me happy. I didnt like the heat though, summer's coming, i can feel it. Next year, i'm going out WAY more than i did this year. I stayed home a lot, cus i didnt really wanna do anything. Sophomore year is just eh, whatevers.

& i just thought of something right now, so i'm gonna go. BYE !

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Gizelle

random

So today started out HORRIBLE. I mean beyond horrible. You have no freaking idea AT ALL. So i went to my cousin's house to escape from everything and have a little fun. From then on, my day got better and better. I'm okay right now, but i have a feeling things are gonna get bad again. Whatevers, lets hope not.

Pacquiao fightt today ! He friggin KILLED Hatton :]. But I was really worried when i saw him on the ground though, but i'm glad when he got up and started walking. One of THEEE best fights ever ! Knocked him out in the 2nd round. My house was so loud cus everyone was screaming and stuff, typical filipino Pacquiao fight right? Great stuff, dont you wish you were Filipino :].

Anywaaays, i love that i have the best friends ever. I love how i have finally met people that i'm comfortable talking to about anything. I love how whenever i just feel like venting out to someone, they dont try giving me lame advice, they just listen. I love how they always ask if i'm okay, and they know when i'm really not. I just love them :]. Let's just skip to the point, bad friends have been replaced by GREAT friends, if you know what i mean.

& btw, I FREAKING LOVE YOU.

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Gizelle

happy may!

So i havent blogged in a while cus i really have nothing to talk about. This week has been pretty much about the same thing everyday. Same thoughts, same actions, same crazy heartbeats i've been having lately [haha.]. This week, i've only been thinking about the future. I kinda started working on my plan, but it doesnt seem like its going anywhere. But luckily, i have a lot of back up plans :].

So, i've been obsessing over someone lately:
goshGIZELLE (10:55:57 PM): OHMAHGAH
goshGIZELLE (10:56:03 PM): I WANNA MARRY HIM

hehehe. You have no freaking IDEA how i've been lately. Never been like this, yaknow?

Kinda makes me wanna cry everytime i hear him cus its just so... SWEET. And then i started to realize what i wanna do.
AHH, i'm like asdfjkl;. TAKE ME PLACES! I need to meet new people.

LOL, people already know i'm freaking crazy over him :D.

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Gizelle