popshow/ 4 years

OHMYYY. So many tears yesterday. Makes you realize who really means a lot to you and who doesnt. WOW.

This was supposed to be posted yesterday, but i couldnt get to a computer.:
So my grandma died 4 years ago yesterday. It hit my family really hard, and honestly it split us apart. She was the glue that held everyone together, and without her, everything was messed up. 4 years doesnt seem that long ago. It feels like just last week she was singing to me. & no one knows this, but she was the reason i love to sing. Everyday she would hum things or teach me words to a song, and we'd sing together. & it was pretty ironic how yesterday was popshow where i was singing. & i thank her for inspiring me. 4 years, wow. i still get teary eyed everytime i think about it, and i really havent gotten over it completely. I didnt cry during that month because i was in shock. I could never have thought that the person i was the closest to would leave me. But things happen and situations change, but all of it makes you stronger. In the last 4 years, i've become more independent and i've learned to show my emotions. I've broken out of my shell and i've become more open. All the lessons my grandma has taught me has really helped me a lot. When i was young, i took a lot of things for granted, because i always thought i was going to have everything that i wanted. But after she died, i realized that even the most important things to you will eventually go away. I hope i made her proud yesterday. I wish she was in the crowd cheering me on, but i know she was somewhere that had a better view.

<3;
Gizelle