not again.

i cant think straight today. i've only thought about the same two things today, and i hate it. i really wish things would just settle down already. i wish i knew what i did wrong, but i know you'll never tell me. i'm really sorry for whatever i did, and i hate not talking to you for this long. my eyes wont stop tearing up... i really do care, i promise i do, but things get in the way. and i know you'd know how that is, since you put a lot of things before me anyways. i really wish i knew how to make things better, cus i really cant afford to loose another person like you. i need you, i hate admitting it, but i do. you have no idea how much you keep me sane. just tell me if you dont want me anymore, so i dont have to keep worrying about you.