healing

Today was definitely better. Yesterday i cried, a lot. Sometimes you hold everything in, and it builds up, yaknow? That's what happened to me yesterday. But i think maybe things are starting to go back to the way things were. With an exception of a person, but i don't need them anymore. Am I annoyed with anyone? Yes, but who needs them anyways? Its not like they exist to me anymore.
Anyways, I'm stuck at home because my parents wont let me go out. I was supposed to go out with people, but my mom is being mean and wont let me. -_- GAH. Its not like I'm going out anywhere this weekend, I'm gonna be stuck home doing homework and stupid project crap.
There is seriously something wrong with me. Its not normal to be this... emotional? idk. whatever. Let's just hope everything gets better so you don't have to deal with my bipolarness anymore.
Yeah so Mervin told me he might have pneumonia. Ahhh. How scary D: But its alright, he's gonna be okay, I know it :].
I've been thinking about colleges lately, and I have no idea what im gonna do. I have like nothing planned. It's kinda scary considering how fast this year went by. I cant believe im going to be graduating in 2 years D:. I needa get my crap straight.

"As we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break some too. You'll fight with your best friend, or maybe even fall in love with them and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest. Tell someone what they mean to you. Speak out, dance in the pouring rain, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, and stay up late watching the stars, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Dont be afraid to take chances or fall in love. And most of all, live in the moment because every sixty seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."



I miss the beach.

<3;
Gizelle