reminiscing

I remember when I'd spend most of my day outside under the big tree with my grandparents. I remember spending hours in the shed outside looking through old stuff. I remember going through my grandma's old clothes playing dress up. I remember being the youngest one in the house, so i got the most attention. I remember sitting next to my grandma while she was sewing dresses for me. I remember listening to her whistle while she sewed. I remember when i didn't have a computer, but it didnt matter anyways cus i was always outside. I remember the flower printed wallpaper in my old room. I remember when the weather was always perfect. I remember when my cousins would come over and all that matter was playing. I remember when my mom and I used to spend a long time putting pictures in the album. I remember being busy, being in things afterschool. I remember when my brother was nice. I remember when I'd write stories everyday. I remember when I'd be outside, and just start singing a song i made up. I remember when my grandma would sing me to sleep when my mom was at work. I remember when my grandpa would walk me to school every morning, and when i'd want to try to walk alone, he'd watch me until i got to school to make sure i was safe. I remember when i used to be one of the people with the best grades. I remember going on the monkey bars and getting blisters. I remember when you just wore whatever you wanted and no one would care. I remember my swing in the backyard. I remember using the drivethru car washes. I remember walking to Winchell's every Saturday morning with my grandparents. I remember eating pan de sal with coffee a lot at night, maybe that's why I'm so short. I remember wanting to clean and wash dishes to make my parents happy. i remember those small pools that I'd spend most of a summer's day in. I remember getting a really bad tan afterwards. I remember the red carpet throughout the house. I remember when Malagant was young and had long ears. I remember the mirror in the hallway. I remember the waterbed my uncle had, and when he visited the Philippines, we would all hang out in his room. I remember when the grass was always green, and the roses were always colorful. I remember when the bills weren't so hard to pay. I remember coming home from school and watching ZOOM on PBS. I remember when I would draw 24/7. I remember when i'd play with the magnets on the refrigerator while my mom cooked. I remember those days when they were sellling ice cream at school, and everyone would buy one for 30cents. I remember taking walks around the neighborhood. I remember not wanting anything to change. But man, how things have changed. I wish things would just go back to being so simple. I miss everything. Life now sucks.

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Gizelle