ups&downs

So for the past couple of nights, i've had really bad nightmares. Like two of the worst ones i've had my whole life. I woke up sobbing both times. It's not fun loosing people, yaknow? I've seriously been thinking really hard about life after high school. What the heck am I gonna do? Only two people know what i wanna do, as a hobby at the moment, or maybe as a life long career, but who knows what's gonna happen. I'm just stuck right now. I need more opportunities! I need to meet new people, so help me! So for now, we'll put this on pause. It's not like i'll give up on it, my heart and mind has been wanting it my whole life.

Anywaaaays, today was nice. The weather was cold, my favorite. I was on the phone with someone, who just happens to be the sweetest person EVER. & who happens to be able to SING too, my favorite ! We'll see what happens. hahaha.

I'm planning on saving up money for a new ipod. So if we go out somewhere, remind me not to buy anything unless it's really necessary. & i wanna buy a whole bunch of other stuff too, I think it's time to get a job. BUUUUUT, im too young, unless your family owns a business or something, and you wanna help me out ;D.

Well, i think i'm gonna go catch up on homework. My grades are slipping again. 34 more days of school left.

Oh life.

<3;

Gizelle